Before I was into Islam, I was into reading a lot of about psychology and spirituality.
I read everything from conventional psychologist such as Sigmund Freud and my favourite psychologist Fredrick Nietzsche
To even reading about Eastern Spiritual Philosophisers with resources coming from Osho and Alan Watts
It seem like they understood fundamental truths about the universe
Patterns that I could correlate in my own life.
I eager to learn to these truths hoping they would resolve a deep seat flaw within my personality.
At the time I didn’t recognise it, but now, looking back I had (what Nietzsche describes as):
A high ‘Will to Power’
I wasn’t satisfied with a simple existence
I desired power over myself and others
Nietzsche explains that this is a natural desire in human beings.
But I know in my youth I felt this intensely.
Unfortunately I had a high will to Power but an extremely low self-disciple and focus.
So when being a man with an attitude of ‘Julius Caesar or Nothing’
It was no surprise looking back that I achieved nothing.
Throughout this time, I would ponder why I was like this and other men weren’t
Initially I began to attribute my characteristic to being simply inferior
There was talk within the male community online and still is same talks today
About some men being ‘alpha’ males
And some men being ‘beta’ males
Alpha males had a natural ability to succeed at life, work, money, women
And Beta males were simply inept at everything and usually crushed by the cruel world forcing their genetics to die out
I wondered how I could change this paradigm
Was there a way to simple change your character to a Alpha male?
After convectional male advice failed me (You know the generic crap: Improve your Body Language, Talk in a Deep Voice, Don’t eat too much Ice cream)
I began to read more from Science and Eastern Philosophy
As you may know Science explains that we are made up of atoms
Atoms vibrating specially
We are a vibration of Atoms
And this vibration is categorised by its Frequency
Alpha, Beta, Gamma, Delta…etc
Ah ha! thats its I told myself, my atoms must be operating at the Beta Wave Frequency
And it made sense on a real life observation basis
Looking at the beta frequency, the wavelengths had high peaks and low troughs.
It was erratic and chaotic
This was like my life, I had anxiety some days, I was addicted to smoking, I had no focus, I was a mess, I was definitely beta, this was MY frequency
Then I looked at the alpha frequency, the wavelengths had smooth peaks and trough, it was calmer and in control.
‘Damn’ I thought
That’s the frequency I want to be at.
That’s the alpha frequency; the type of frequency that allows you go into sales meetings and close deals
Walk into nightclub and charm all the beautiful women without effort.
It was all done to a science and the vibration of atoms within us
So I worked on changing my vibration
That is where Eastern Philosophy comes in
Eastern Philosophy talks a lot about this.
They mention how you change your vibration by simply meditating, breathing deeply, releasing your ‘chakras’
So I did all that, I woke up early each morning and meditated for half n hour..
Breath deeply, tried yoga, tried drinking apple cider vinger…
(These thoughts led by Elliot Hulse with his Bio-energetic Breathing and Dynamic Meditation by Osho)
I tried it all… And did it work?
Kinda not really….
I would feel some difference and sometimes I could walk into a crowd and instantly connect with people
But half the time, I wouldn’t
Even feeling too drained to keep going with these spiritual exercises
The amount of work required for the payoff was not worth it.
After awhile I gave up on achieving greatness and fell into a terrible nihilism and depression.
My will to Power diminished to ZERO
And to this day I have no desire or care about ‘gaining power’
But only wish to overcome myself
That’s where religion comes in
I found a new hope in turning towards god
First Christianity and then later Islam
Something about these practices removed my nihilism and gave me a new sense of meaning a purpose.
Even though there is no wordy possession that I wish to gain…
Looking back I think I was always into just seeking the truth
Before I had elements of the truth and not the complete truth
Is it true that we are a vibration of atoms? Yes I believe its true
Is it true that we can change our vibration? Yes and No
Yes we have to ability to change our vibration but….
No we don’t have the power too. (Some people have a fraction of will power, but even thats a mercy from God)
Only God has the power to change us completely.
You see most of us are living in the Beta wavelength frequency.
Without god we all live with feelings of emptiness, anxiety and meaningless
And we try to escape that pain with pleasure
The more we try to escape that pain ourselves
The higher our frequency becomes
The more chaotic and out of control and anxious we feel
Whats worse is its a roller-coaster ride that is extremely hard to get off
Some people have being doing it for such a long time
They’ve pushed the limits of their wavelength peaks
With substance abuse such as alcohol or drugs
We don’t have the power to simply switch
But the truth is that God has the power
God has the power to change your frequency to calm, peace and order
All you have to do is submit to him:
-Become his servant -Ask for forgiveness -Ask for that vibration
And that exactly what we do in Islam
This is the opening words of prayer, it is called Surat Al-Fatiha
بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ (Bismillāhi r-raḥmāni r-raḥīm) 2. الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ (Al ḥamdu lillāhi rabbi l-’ālamīn) 3. الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ (Ar raḥmāni r-raḥīm) 4. مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ (Māliki yawmi d-dīn) 5. إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ (Iyyāka na’budu wa iyyāka nasta’īn) 6. اهْدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ الْمُسْتَقِيمَ (Ihdinā ṣ-ṣirāṭ al-mustaqīm) 7. صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ غَيْرِ الْمَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلَا الضَّالِّينَ (Ṣirāṭ al lazi na an’amta ‘alayhim, ġayril maġḍūbi ‘alayhim walāḍ ḍāllīn)
this is the English interpretation
1 In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful. 2 Praise be to Allah, Lord of the Worlds, 3 The Beneficent, the Merciful. 4 Master of the Day of Judgment, 5 Thee (alone) we worship; Thee (alone) we ask for help. 6 Show us the straight line, 7 The path of those whom Thou hast favoured; Not the (path) of those who earn Thine anger nor of those who go astray.
The straight line, is the vibration of peace and order
The straight line, is feeling of calmness and control
The straight line is the truth and God